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Wednesday, September 10th, 2008

Time:9:45 pm.
I don't use this nearly as much as i used to, but i am gradually returning!
Most of my posts are friends only, some arent
Please let me know if you add me, and i will more than likely add you back ;)
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Sunday, August 31st, 2008

Time:8:55 pm.
oh and



i am still posting there, if you did not notice the first time
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Thursday, March 6th, 2008

Time:7:54 pm.
oh and

new livejournal:


addddddd it.
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Saturday, March 1st, 2008

Time:10:58 pm.
eeeeeeeeeeeee puppy!!

Her name is Penny and she is a 9 week old lhasa apso. Jay is pretty upset, but i think he'll grow to love her eventually- i hope, at least!
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Thursday, February 28th, 2008

Time:10:40 pm.
so it's not 100 percent solid yet but i am 99 percent sure bringing a new little one home tomorrow or saturday:


i am so excited!! awwwweeee puuupppppieeee!!
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Thursday, December 27th, 2007

Time:3:26 pm.
someone nudged me so i guess that i should write an update quick while im waiting for towels to dry so i can take a shower cause i am gross and disgustinggggg.

christmas was wonderful. i got everything i wanted, plus so so so much more:

jay got me: a nifty pink digital camera, the first season of nip/tuck on dvd, a card thingie for my camera, and a very pretty circle pendant necklace. he also bought me a new tire for my car! yay!

my grandma got meeeee MY OLD SEWING MACHINE!! completely refurbished and better than brand new. i kinda quit sewing because it broke and i just couldnt get down with the new one i got to replace it. plus she got me a really great pair of scissors, a cute HUGE pin cushion, and all kinds of stuff to go along with it.

my mommy got me an amazing new down comforter to match my new sheets i just got, a pillow that i promptly traded for one my grandma gave my sister, and a 100 dollar marshalls gift certificate which i will spend all in one trip on crap i dont need

my aunt got me a 50 dollar victorias secret gift card which i will spend all in one trip on ONE thing i really do need

my sister got me a very nice philosophy set (grace) which im really excited about cause it smells like fresh laundry

my little brother and his girlfriend got me bath stuff, jays mom got me bath stuff and some cute head bands cause i wore a headband the first time i ever met her and apparently that means i just LOVEEEE them, and his aunt and uncle got us a gift certificate to our favorite mexican restaurant, and some chocolatie goodness for me.

i really cant remember much else. my dad gave me money. and i think thats probably about it.

aside from getting great stuff to play with, i was just really happy to get to spend so much time with my family, to have jay there with my family, and to get to spend time with his family, too.

so that was christmas.
and now it's back to work and blah blahhh blahhh.
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Wednesday, November 28th, 2007

Time:5:00 pm.
life is so good right now. i always say that and then something bad happens, but i am just content content content.

christmas is soon and i am so excited about that. i dont really want to do a tree at my apartment this year cause neither zac or i will be here for christmas, and jay and i are doing a tree at his house. but we decorated at work and hung our stockings from the loft upstairs, so that was fun. i have already knocked out one small gift for my brothers girlfriend, and am about to go shop for a few more small things- im trying not to wait til the last minute like i always do, so it wont be such a pain to spend that much money all at once. i really need to pay rent first though, argggh.

and i leave you with this adorable picture of jay and i being adorable
i dont know what was happening here, at all

*oh and just to clarify on the height difference that doesnt look so bad in this photo: i was wearing heels, AND had my head stretched up

he is gone with sovus playing shows until sunday, and i am very sad about that fact
he just left this morning and i miss him already
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Saturday, October 6th, 2007

Time:12:57 am.
i dont understand why i am taking this so badly, but i have been in a funk all week
i kind of just really thought that this would work, for once
there was absolutely nothing wrong with us, we were being good together
and now we are just flat out not speaking at all and i hate it

stupid boys and drugs and ridiculousness
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Thursday, September 27th, 2007

Time:2:30 am.
i am actually pretty damn sad now.

the only thing that is cheering me up is the fact that i have 99 percent convinced my grandma to buy a mini-cow!


but when i stop looking at the adorableness that is little cattle, i am definitely sad again

things i want to do now that it is fall:
go to a corn maze,
go to the fair this weekend
go to tanglewood farm and get a lil moo moo
go to the bunny ranch and get a lionhead bunny
go to a haunted house
go see across the universe, cause i dont go see movies unless its fall or winter
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Tuesday, September 18th, 2007

Time:9:48 pm.
leo had a seizure today and that is always a crappy crappy thing to see :(

my sister and her boyfriend joel and their dogs came over, and we were all horsing around outside. leo gets along really well with my sisters weenie dog, but had never met joels dog before, which happens to be like mammothly huge.

they werent playing too rough but joels dog snapped at leo a little bit and barked, and leo freaked out, tried to run away a few steps, fell over and started seizing. the whole thing only lasted 6 minutes this time, and ive seen it happen 5 times now, but i still cried my eyes out, regardless.

it is the saddest thing in the world to see. he falls over and convulses for about a minute, and then spends the next 5 or so minutes trying to get control of his body again. he regains composure of his head first, then tries to get up, drags himself around with his front paws for a while, and then all of a sudden the back kicks in and he runs around perfectly fine again. it is the weirdest thing to see. he went right back to playing like he had no idea it even happened!

so he is fine now- just gallivanting around the house and loving the attention.
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Time:1:13 am.
i love morgan freeman. i am so ridiculously in love with his voice. if morgan freeman told me to shoot myself in the face, i would do it- his voice is just that good.

if i ever become a millionaire i will pay morgan freeman thousands of dollars a day just to hangout at my house and narrate my life.
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Thursday, September 13th, 2007

Time:4:16 am.
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God gosh, i am in trouble.
He makes me feel all crazy flip floppy inside. he calls me beautiful and makes me smile like a retard at any given point of the day, and my phone bill is going to be ridiculous because we talk constantly.
But i hate it, because it is so hard to gauge a relationship when there is so much distance present. I can't tell from so far far away, whether or not anything is going to come from it and if it's even the same on both sides. Because as of now, you can't really expect anything to grow when all it's being fed is text messages and phone calls. I hate hate hate the not knowing. but i am trying to wait patiently, til he comes home.
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Wednesday, September 12th, 2007

Time:11:20 pm.
i got the job at charlie g's and i am so excited-
it's pretty much like HEY you get PAID to hangout at your favorite bar you'd be hanging out at ANYWAY!
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Time:11:48 am.
i have a job interview today at a bar that i really really really wanna work at, and i am nervousss!

not only do i deathly need a job, SOON, as this point, but i would just be the happiest girl in the world working there.
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Time:12:50 am.
my mommy takes very pretty pictures of me:

and that is only one of the reasons that i love her!
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Tuesday, September 11th, 2007

Subject:it is in the leaving
Time:9:49 pm.
i dug this out from a few years ago when it seems i did not a lot besides live my life in the leavings. i am thinking a lot lately, how odd it is that love is an emotion that in its instances feels so contingent on a person, but in reality, is the same exact emotion, the same feelings, the same thoughts- and the person its self is interchangeable. maybe that's an awful thing to say. the concept never really made sense to me, because for the past year, it has seemed as if my concept and idea of what love is, has been ever decreasing in emotion- nothing has been as good as the first was. nothing was as good after the fall. and now, i am finally finding- that there are bigger things, on bigger plains, ahead of me. i am finding that love can exist in a way 10 times as deep as it ever did, before. i thought that i had found the deepest part of the ocean, because there was nothing past it but shallowness. i am finally realizing that the shallowness was only sand bars, and there is a depth beyond it i never really imagined. a depth that i am only just now ready to stretch my legs and swim in.

so for the longest time, i lived my life in the leavings. the disastrous, heart wrenching, waving good bye, tears on face- leavings. it seems that the leavings will never stop. i am constantly forever drawn to a sort of passion that will always take the men in my life away from me. it is apparent that this time will be no different.

the only thing that will be different this time, is my choice not to live in the departures. to instead, finally develop patience. to sit blissful and grace filled- and wait for sweet returns.

it is in the leaving that the agony begins.
hope and skin, stretched too far.
time enough for words,
borrowed and weighty.

eyes that glisten in the knowing of what comes
always comes.

train stations
bus stops.
take us apart.

but we keep knitting together-
strange and inevitably.
even we don't question it anymore.

it is not in the reuniting that we are together.

no kind of kiss binds us,
each greeting,
each meeting.
is new,
is full of searching
of not sure if it will be the same.

it is not in the continuing.

not in the birthdays anniversaries new years.
(although they're very grand.)
nor in the letters,

the i miss yous are careless, because they're common.

it is not in the waiting.

the day counting
the trip planning
the bag packing.

no kind of agony that shreds days makes us together
(calendars are cruel.)

it is in the leaving.
in the last look.
last touch.
last kiss.
one more.
will i ever see you again?
that makes me sure.
that makes him sure.
this is a great love.
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Friday, September 7th, 2007

Time:10:48 pm.
My roommate (gay, obviously, african american surprisingly) went to UGA this past week to hang out with his super fratty boyfriend, who i love to death. he came back listening to really really good music for all of about 20 minutes, but now it is back to sounding like a techno club in my house, again.

My new job is pretty awesome, but working normal 9-5 hours is totally freaking me out. Really, having to get up and look presentable to the public in office casual attire is freaking me out. Not wearing big earrings is freaking me out.

Speaking of big earrings and big purses- i found this website that has pretty cute stuff for pretty cheap

against my responsible judgment, (lord knows i dont have any of that!) i got this shirt which i will probably get one wear out of before fall:

the best part is that i signed up so i can get commission if anybody i knows buys anything
and that's pretty awesome
plus its a good excuse for me to buy stuff i dont need cause i can convince myself im getting a discount, hahah
so if you see anything you would like to waste money on, select my name from the drop down menu and i get money! cool!
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Saturday, September 1st, 2007

Time:4:34 pm.
life is interesting as always

i had a blast in miami and the keys with my mom this past week. i love vacations with my mom- they are TRUE laying around in the sun all day, eating too much, walking on the beach, VACATIONS. as much as i enjoy road trip with friends and partying and going out every night vacations, they are not much for rest and relaxation.

not like i need relaxation considering that i don't have a job. i got a position working for a home decor company at the Mart, but that is only a week every month- it pays very very well, but i can't live off of it. i am definitely excited about it, because it's really promising and right up my alley.

so i gave in today finally and went and talked to my old head of store when i went to pick up my very last paycheck. i didn't exactly beg for my job back, but i did apologize for how i left, and explained to him that i tried to come back and talk to him about it earlier but was told by another manager that it was "too late" That's exactly how to get to Dan because he hates it when he feels like he's being under minded by his managers in lower positions. So he said that he would call me about it, and then winked all creepy like, which in Dan speak i think means that i will be put back on the schedule. That would be awesome because i am FLAT BROKE! I have 40 dollars to last until i get my check from the Mart, which will not be til like the 15th. My rent is due and i only have 200 dollars of it. So i need another 290 more by like, tomorrow. Im going to dinner at my dads tonight, so hopefully, he will help me out. I hope hope hope he can, because he has not given me any money in forever.

Also, i met a boy. said boy is leaving for like 2 months on Thursday though. isn't that just how my life always is?
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Sunday, August 26th, 2007

Time:3:20 pm.
so im in key largo now instead of miami, but it wont stop raining
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Wednesday, August 22nd, 2007

Time:5:36 pm.
So while job hunting i signed up for atlantas service industry network at mysface resume, and apparently they entered me in the SIN girl of the month contest- i didnt find out about it til today so im a little behind in the running, but the winner gets 250 dollars so that'd be awesome! I am never one to turn down money!

so go vote :)

Click HERE to Vote For ME to be the Atlanta S.I.N. Girl of the Month!!
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